I consider myself to be a dreamer. I dream big, and I want to turn my dream into reality. I believe that everything is possible, it might not be easy to achieve (it usually never is), but if you are persistent, you can make it happen. I have a lot of dreams in life, a lot of things that I want to accomplish. Currently, my dream is to study abroad. I know studying abroad cost a lot of money, but to me, the knowledge and life experience that I will get in return is something that will make everything worth the effort. I am definitely into seeking knowledge and experience in things that interest me. There are people out there who will disagree with me, I'm sure of it, that's life. You know what, it's their rights to disagree with me as much as it is also my rights to stand for my own dreams. They don't have to understand my reasons, and I don't need their approval to go after my dreams, but all I want is some respect. I will tell you what I mean in a little bit.
To those of you who might not already know, I am one step closer to my dream of studying abroad. I got accepted into Royal Welsh College of Music and Drama for Master in Music Performance course. I was beyond happy and excited, because I was at the point of doubting if I ever get to study abroad. Getting accepted was only the first step, the next step is getting the funds to study there. The currency rate between British Pound Sterling (£) and Malaysian Ringgit (RM) is pretty expensive, meaning £ is way higher than RM. Which makes it very expensive to get myself from Malaysia to Wales. My course will be for two years and the tuition fees alone for the first year (for international students) is more than £9,000 which means it is between RM45,000 to RM50,000. Plus all the living cost for one year, I would probably need at least RM100,000 per year. Now, I have to say that this was my thought in the early stages, which is I need more than RM200,000 to survive there! So, of course I couldn't afford it. In Malaysia, there's a loan/scholarship known as MARA or JPA, that the Bumiputra (Malays and the native people), can apply and will get sponsorship not only for the tuition fees but for the living cost as well. Of course, a lot people aim for this, myself included. However, it seems like MARA is not giving out money this year, or so the rumours said. I noticed a lot of people in the Facebook page for this MARA loans start to get discourage and not wanting to further their studies anymore because of it. In my opinion, I think that we shouldn't get discourage by something like this. Yes, it makes things harder, but still, it is not impossible, the only reason things become impossible is because we believe they are impossible to achieve. Those people that got discouraged are doing the common course (such as engineering, business, etc.) with loads of scholarships available. For music on the other hand, or any arts course for that matter, is a different story. Malaysia is not so supportive for arts which makes it very challenging for people in the same boat as me to find funding to study abroad.
The last option for me is to get bank loans, I know, the paying back of the loan will be a challenge, but it is a challenge that I am willing to take. I already thought this through, all the long term and short term and it is something that I'm willing to do. So, what I did, I posted something in that MARA Facebook page just to ask for suggestions or recommendations of any banks that have good package for student loans. This is what I posted:
|to those who don't speak Malay, I think you can roughly understand since it's mixed of Malay and English|
And the response that I got...wow, and here I thought people in that particular page (sorry, I'm not going to mention the name of the page) is more open minded and are more intelligent. Nope, I was wrong...ignorant people are everywhere. I wasn't even preaching about getting bank loans, I was just asking...ASKING about bank loans and there are some men who just....exploded saying how without MARA we CANNOT further studies and that we must rely 100% on MARA and not succeed without the help of the government, and how without MARA gaining knowledge is just a waste of time. Like, seriously? Dafuq did I just read? Look, first of all, if you want to play it safe, good for you...it's your choice. That's not me. If the purpose of your existence is to survive, good for you...it's your choice. That's not me. I have absolutely nothing against whatever you believe, so I see no reason why you need to be so upset with what I believe in. The funny thing is, after I replied politely on my thoughts on why I still want to further my studies they ended up accusing me for getting angry and asking me to chill. Like.....REALLY? Oh my, men and their egos are just wonderful *claps of sarcasm* This is what I meant earlier, if people just respect the differences, this world will be a much better place. I ended up unfollowing my own post because it's not my fight, it's not helping me to give me the information that I need, and it was definitely a waste of my time. So, they can continue fighting amongst each other. I'm going to look for ways to turn my dream into reality.
However, they are wonderful people there who asked me to go chase my dream and find a way to make it work. You know what, those are my kind of people, the dreamers, the believers. Those are the people that I admire and will forever be grateful about. Some of them even sent private messages to me to tell their stories. On how they made it work, and how it is possible and how much they love the experience and said there are no regrets at all. Some of them even give me some new perspectives on how to make this work, and you know what...that post of mine, regardless of the amount of unnecessary hate that I get, it also inspires me. Everything really do happen for a reason. Now I have some ideas. Of course, I still need to find some funding for the tuition fees, but that's about it, I need money for the tuition fees for two years, and probably the first few months worth of rent, after that, I can get a part time job to help me support myself. Some people might get discouraged by the idea of needing to work while studying....but guess what? I think it's an adventure and actually excited for it. I won't say it will be easy, but it will definitely be an experience that I will cherish forever. I can feel it in my heart ^_^ Which will lead us to the topic of this post: When there's a will, there's a way.
I don't see why I need to give up on my dreams just because the government is not giving out any funds for this year. I make the path of my life, I will decide how it will end. As long as it doesn't end the way that I want, it only means it is not the end of the path just yet. Yes, giving up seems like the easier alternative at the moment...but, that's not me. Where's the adventure in that? I'm not here to survive, I'm here to live. To those people who are getting discourage out there, don't. No one can make your dream come true other than yourselves. Stop relying too much on others to get you to where you want. For once, be a fighter, be independent. Just know that something becomes impossible only because you believe it to be. If everybody does that, believe me, I won't even have a blog because we will still have no electricity. Everything is possible as long as you put your heart into it. Find a way, stop relying on others to make your dream come true. Trust me, it will get you nowhere at the end of the day.