Sunday, September 20, 2015

First Post from a New Land

Hello everybody.  It's been awhile since I last updated something.  I will try my best to update more often in the future.  I am happy to announce, that I am still alive and healthy (thankfully), and I am currently writing this from my room in Cardiff.  Yay!  A start of a new chapter in my life.  I pray for the best possible experience from this journey.  I admit, getting to this point was no easy task.  I pretty much felt like I went through hell and back to get here.  I won't say that the difficult part is over, because there are still some things that I need to get it settled before I can truly, absolutely, completely enjoy this new beginning.  

I must admit, I have fears of pursuing this dream of mine of studying music in the Western world.  I would be lying if I say I have no worries.  There are so many things to think about, and I admit, there are plenty of times where giving up seems like such an easier and hassle-free alternative.  I know, a lot of people (particularly Malaysians) would've given up.  I am saying this because I saw a lot people who gave up.  I don't blame them, because Malaysia is not economically stable at the moment, the drop of currency is really effecting everyone who wish to study abroad and everything just become such a burden financially.  And some people who gave up their dreams didn't do it because they want it the easy way, but because they have other priorities to think about.  So, I don't blame them, it's a pity though, I hope they will get to live their dream sooner or later.

*photo taken from Tumblr
But there are those who gave up because apparently it is "too difficult" and to those people, I don't know what you'd expect this to be...a nice peaceful walk in the park?  Everything will just come rolling down your way and you don't have to lift a finger to get anything done?  I know there's this concept of visualizing what you want and it well happen, I believe in that concept, but some people are understanding it the wrong way.  Visualizing doesn't mean you imagine it and do nothing.  It's merely about changing your mindset of you getting what you want and make your way to the direction that you want to go.  It's about being optimistic that your dreams are possibilities that you can have in the future, and believing in those possibilities.  I was told so many times to give up, but I visualize what I want, and here I am today, updating my blog from my room in Cardiff, UK.  Was it an easy journey?  Hell no.  It was an adventure!!  Definitely an experience that I will never forget.  All the ups and downs....the difficulties that I have faced, the time I spent crying in my room because I felt like it was too hard with everyone telling me to quit, the financial difficulties, the challenges with my much obstacles, that when I arrive at the airport of Heathrow...everything felt so meaningful.  To know that I've made it this far...and that just give me the strength to keep going through this new journey.

I've made it this far!!
So, to those people out there who are reading this, and you have a dream that you want to achieve...go and get them.  I believe that everything is possible in this life.  If you want to be someone amazing, then be that amazing someone.  You should not let anyone stop you.  I know, coming from an Asian family, that might be a little complicated as Asian parents (especially the older generations) feel like they are the ones to decide how you should live your life, but I'm telling you, it's your what YOU want.  Don't live your life pleasing others, not even your parents.  I know this might sounds like I'm a bad daughter for saying this, I probably am...but I believe that if your parents truly love you unconditionally, they will be proud of your success no matter what.  They might take it personally at first, but they will come around and see how much this means to you.  Good luck in achieving your dreams everyone!!  I will see you at the top coz that's where I'm heading!  ;)

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